Videos&Art: manarchists & macktivists, white activists and rapists (shit people say)

Posted on February 8, 2012 by sosiaalikeskus

Posted by Milla — she=he

This is what I picked up from the “shit people say..” fad going on on the internet 🙂

And

And since the above is in relation to speaking one’s truth as a way to raising awareness and healing, I end with the following:

Project unbreakable: “In October of last year, Grace Brown began a photography project called Project Unbreakable. Grace uses photography to help heal sexual abuse survivors by photographing them with posters that hold quotes from their attackers. Rape survivor and advocate for victims of sexual abuse, Yvonne Moss, describes the project as a way for victims to take the power back of the words that were once used against them.”

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Another scene.

Posted on December 27, 2011 by sosiaalikeskus

posted by Milla — she=he

I’m starting over in this space: http://anotherscene2.tumblr.com/

And this is why:

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Wanting trust, playfulness and ease around sexual expression

Posted on December 25, 2011 by sosiaalikeskus

posted by Milla — she=he (Song: Björk – Big time sensuality)

I’m in a place of finding out what I want and learning how to ask for it. Had a talk the other day with someone, where some sexual content came up, and I tried to process that today by asking for empathy online. I asked in two places. A facebook group, and on skype. I first got a response on skype, and this is the chat that followed:

Some idea of what our galaxy looks like from the outside.

[4:30:11 PM] feministsister: empathy

[4:30:20 PM] |nvclink| (63 online): It takes about up to 30 min. to find an available partner.

You can cancel your request during the search, but canceling is only for unforeseen events

Do you have that time to wait? (yes/no)

[4:30:32 PM] feministsister: yes

[4:30:36 PM] |nvclink| (63 online): To share samples of using NVC we would like to publish chat logs.

Would you like the chat to be

public – to have this chat published as Milla/finland

anonymous – to have this chat published anonymously

private – to avoid having this chat published

public/anonymous/private?

(you can change your preference during the chat as well)

[4:30:59 PM] feministsister: public

[4:31:00 PM] |nvclink| (63 online): Type ‘ringme’ if you want to receive an alert via a ring you when the request is accepted.

(type ‘end’ to cancel your request)

[4:31:00 PM | Edited 4:36:37 PM] |nvclink| (63 online): Waiting for reply from 11 people.*

[4:36:55 PM] |nvclink| (62 online): user NYC_Guy/united states is chatting with you.

[4:36:55 PM] |nvclink| (62 online): Type at any time during the chat:

voice – to switch to voice chat

video – to switch to video chat

end – when the chat finishes.

friend – to add this user as a friend

block – to block this user

Chats may be monitored to avoid abuse

[4:36:56 PM] |nvclink| (62 online): Your chat partner NYC_Guy time limit for this chat is 20 min.

[4:37:12 PM] |nvclink| (62 online): NYC_Guy : hi

[4:37:30 PM] |nvclink| (62 online): NYC_Guy : Milla?

[4:39:18 PM] feministsister: hello

[4:39:52 PM] feministsister: how much time do you have? and would it be okay to connect over voice?

[4:40:29 PM] |nvclink| (62 online): NYC_Guy : My housemate is sleeping right now. I could get dressed and go for a walk but you would then prob need to…

[4:40:42 PM] |nvclink| (62 online): NYC_Guy : call my cell phone. Over skype, this would be cheap.

[4:40:53 PM] |nvclink| (62 online): NYC_Guy : How would you feel about textual emapathy?

[4:40:59 PM] feministsister: well. i guess writing is okay as well.

[4:41:13 PM] |nvclink| (62 online): NYC_Guy : Does it meet your need for connection?

[4:41:47 PM] feministsister: just takes a bit more energy. figuring out how to connect in a way that meets my need for safety and space. like i would like for us to use a talking stick.

[4:42:13 PM] feministsister: would you be okay wtih that? that we each have talking turns and that we end them with this mark –

[4:42:41 PM] |nvclink| (62 online): NYC_Guy : oh

[4:42:43 PM] |nvclink| (62 online): NYC_Guy : sure

[4:43:07 PM] |nvclink| (62 online): NYC_Guy : Are you wanting emapthy?

[4:43:10 PM] |nvclink| (62 online): NYC_Guy : –

[4:43:35 PM] feministsister: yes i want empathy. and also to feel safe/r while having the talk.

[4:43:43 PM] feministsister: using a talking stick.

[4:44:08 PM] feministsister: and also you saying how much time you’re willing to give helps me feel more relaxed during the talk.

[4:44:32 PM] feministsister: would you be okay setting a time limit?

[4:44:33 PM] feministsister: –

[4:45:27 PM] |nvclink| (62 online): NYC_Guy : How would you be if we go for 20 min and then check in about how we both feel about more time?

[4:45:27 PM] |nvclink| (62 online): NYC_Guy : –

[4:45:53 PM] feministsister: okaky. i feel a bit stressed about this form of speaking. and and also it’s difficult for me to request empathy.

[4:46:28 PM] feministsister: i was crying a bit before. this case it’s related to my life situation i general but also a talk i had with a person over skype the other day.

[4:46:48 PM] feministsister: it’s a person that i feel open to. it’s easy to feel love. affection.

[4:46:59 PM] feministsister: and then it was some time since we had talked last.

[4:47:44 PM] feministsister: and this person sent me a link with video clips of some film where there were sex scenes put together.

[4:48:00 PM] feministsister: and i guess i feel sad and angry about that.

[4:48:03 PM] feministsister: –

[4:48:15 PM] |nvclink| (63 online): NYC_Guy : ah

[4:48:22 PM] |nvclink| (63 online): NYC_Guy : I’m wondering…

[4:48:56 PM] |nvclink| (63 online): NYC_Guy : are you confused and want clarity? –

[4:50:08 PM] feministsister: i guess i want a connection where my comfort is important. last time, some months before we had had a talk where there was talk about touching and i didn’t feel comfortable with it. cause i want choice and trust that mutuality is important for the other.

[4:50:26 PM] feministsister: so i feel really sad about this happeniing ‘again’.

[4:50:28 PM] feministsister: –

[4:51:25 PM] |nvclink| (64 online): NYC_Guy : ah, you would like consideration perhaps? –

[4:52:32 PM] feministsister: i would like to be really assured that i matter. and i’m also longing for sexual expression that is not dictated by lookism, sexism. the scenes that i saw there was a man

[4:52:34 PM] feministsister: and a woman

[4:52:46 PM] feministsister: and the guy was leading the whole thing

[4:53:20 PM] feministsister: i’m grateful that at least it wasn’t ‘the real thing’ but ‘just’ clips from some mainstream film.

[4:53:22 PM] |nvclink| (64 online): NYC_Guy : (if we get disconnected, I’m NYC_Guy80 on skype. You can get me there)

# 3 min left to your chat partner time limit, please respect it.

[4:54:09 PM] feministsister: i’m sad cause there’s no freedom or mutuality in sex. and also a bit this, that there’s no clairty in why the hell someone would send stuff like that to me.

[4:54:34 PM] feministsister: and sadness that what i would find creepy and just

[4:54:48 PM] feministsister: unacceptable. that i don’t say no.

[4:55:04 PM] feministsister: like fears about not being accepted i guess.

[4:55:06 PM] feministsister: –

[4:55:49 PM] |nvclink| (64 online): NYC_Guy : Do you value a sort of freedom around sexuality perhaps?

# 1 min left to your chat partner time limit, please respect it.

[4:55:52 PM] |nvclink| (64 online): NYC_Guy : –

# 1 min left to your chat partner time limit, please respect it.

[4:56:31 PM] feministsister: yes. and there’s a lot of sadness that i don’t sense this freedcom to express myself.

[4:56:54 PM] feministsister: like that it’s hard to do so where everything and everyone is objectified.

[4:57:00 PM] feministsister: it’s ugly and alienating.

[4:57:01 PM] feministsister: –

[4:57:53 PM] |nvclink| (65 online): NYC_Guy : You are morning the lack of freedom?

[4:58:00 PM] |nvclink| (65 online): # The time limit your chat partner set for this chat, has been reached

# Connection Disconnected

# Your chat partner can choose to reconnect

[4:58:10 PM] |nvclink| (65 online): # your chat partner reconnected the chat time with no limits

[4:58:22 PM] |nvclink| (65 online): # Your chat partner requested a reminder in 20 min

[4:58:59 PM] feministsister: i guess i can say yes to that. and also that i lack the connection.

[4:59:38 PM] feministsister: when seeing those images. that are supposed to be ‘sexy’. that in fact dictate to a lot of people what ‘sex’ is.

[5:00:20 PM] feministsister: a guy leading a woman. thrusting on top of her. pinning her down on the floor, holding her arms.

[5:00:54 PM] feministsister: so probably that i’m longing for a sexual expression from within myself but that i haven’t found it yet.

[5:01:08 PM] feministsister: and that it’s hard to find it with other people.

[5:01:13 PM] feministsister: –

[5:03:06 PM] feministsister: are you there?

[5:03:22 PM] |nvclink| (64 online): NYC_Guy : typing…

[5:03:23 PM] |nvclink| (64 online): NYC_Guy : hold…

[5:03:48 PM] |nvclink| (64 online): NYC_Guy : “so probably that i’m longing for a sexual expression from within myself but that i haven’t found it yet” is confusing to me. Do you mean you would like acceptance and/or self acceptance of your varous sexual interests, curiosities, tasts, distastes?

[5:04:20 PM] |nvclink| (64 online): NYC_Guy : the ablity to say “yes” or “no” and have either answer be fine w/ your potential lover? –

[5:06:12 PM] feministsister: that i’m longing for a space where i feel accepted and safe. and that i don’t do that with the images i described. cause those images say that it’s about power not about being sensitive and caring for one another but about overwhelming and taking over on one part and to give in and give up on the other.

[5:06:46 PM] feministsister: so for me to be able to find a sexual expression and to be safe to express myself. knowing that the other actually cares.

[5:07:07 PM] feministsister: cause the images that i describe they only bring fear to me.

[5:07:17 PM] feministsister: that i won’t find any space for myself.

[5:07:23 PM] feministsister: –

[5:09:34 PM] |nvclink| (64 online): NYC_Guy : Do you have a need for safty and to know that sexuality you want will be avaiable? And that you will be able to avoid forms of sexuality you don’t want? –

[5:10:07 PM] feministsister: yes. and also that i’m wanted.

[5:10:33 PM] feministsister: to be able to trust that i’m wanted.

[5:10:47 PM] feministsister: as a whole human being.

[5:11:50 PM] feministsister: i’m really messed up with human relations in general. and it saddens me that i can’t think of any better strategy to meet my need for safety

[5:11:54 PM] feministsister: and own space

[5:12:04 PM] feministsister: than to just be by myself

[5:12:09 PM] feministsister: completely by myself.

[5:12:29 PM] feministsister: at least i try now to ask for empathy. and i think i’m going in a better direction that way

[5:12:38 PM] feministsister: but loneliness is hard.

[5:12:51 PM] feministsister: and it’s sad that contact with others feels so hurtful to me

[5:13:08 PM] feministsister: and that it can have such impact on how i feel about myself

[5:13:11 PM] feministsister: –

[5:13:20 PM] |nvclink| (63 online): NYC_Guy : reading

[5:14:35 PM] |nvclink| (66 online): NYC_Guy : Are you feeling sadness and would like to trust that your lovers will know you, cares about you, will be there to support and listen to you?

[5:15:03 PM] feministsister: is it my turn to talk?

[5:15:22 PM] |nvclink| (66 online): NYC_Guy : sorry! yes! –

[5:15:26 PM] feministsister: okay.

[5:15:38 PM] feministsister: well that

[5:15:46 PM] feministsister: people in general would care about me

[5:16:04 PM] feministsister: and that random people wouldn’t put some form of sexuality in my face

[5:16:14 PM] feministsister: without first checking with me if i’m okay with that

[5:16:22 PM] feministsister: and also if they could verbalize

[5:16:30 PM] feministsister: what they mean by bringing it up

[5:16:56 PM] feministsister: i live in a world where my body isn’t my own

[5:17:06 PM] feministsister: and where sexual expression is used to dominate

[5:17:16 PM] feministsister: to ‘put me in place’

[5:17:32 PM] feministsister: so even getting to a place where

[5:17:53 PM] feministsister: i don’t speaking about ‘lovers’ feels like a fantasy dimension to me that i don’t have access to

[5:18:14 PM] feministsister: –

[5:18:29 PM] |nvclink| (67 online): # Your chat partner reminder has been reached.

[5:18:56 PM] |nvclink| (68 online): NYC_Guy : reading, re-reading

[5:20:32 PM] |nvclink| (66 online): NYC_Guy : Would you really like trust and playfulness and ease around sex in your life?

[5:20:35 PM] |nvclink| (66 online): NYC_Guy : –

[5:21:31 PM] feministsister: yes. and that people don’t put ‘sexual’ stuff in front of me without checking how i feel about it.

[5:22:13 PM] feministsister: dunno. we’ve been chatting for more than 40 minutes now. i appreciate you taking the time. responding to a stranger asking for empathy.

[5:22:48 PM] feministsister: i would like to post this chat on a blog that i have. would you be okay with that? is there anything else you’d like to say?

[5:22:48 PM] feministsister: –

[5:24:51 PM] |nvclink| (70 online): NYC_Guy : Feel free to connect w/ me at NYC_Guy80 on skype. AS LONG AS YOU ARE VERY CAREFUL TO MAKE SURE THAT THAT ID IS NOT IN THE BLOG then sure, nothing else is private as far as I’m concnered except my name. Let me think if there is anything else I’d like to ask…

[5:25:23 PM] |nvclink| (70 online): NYC_Guy : (I have mentioned my name twice, I think. Please delete that from both places, OK?)

[5:26:05 PM] |nvclink| (71 online): NYC_Guy : thinking

[5:26:56 PM] feministsister: okay i hear that it’s okay with you to post our chat if your id and name is not mentioned. would you be okay saying a name i could use instead of ‘Your Name’? and also wanting to hear what else you want to share 🙂

[5:27:51 PM] |nvclink| (73 online): NYC_Guy : NYC_Guy would be a fine name for me, I think.

[5:28:03 PM] |nvclink| (73 online): NYC_Guy : do you want to connect on skype directly, by the way?

[5:28:09 PM] |nvclink| (73 online): NYC_Guy : (no pressure)

[5:29:09 PM] feministsister: i have a lot of issues to sort out in my life. it would be nice to talk some more. but i would also like to have a time limit set so that it doesn’t ‘drag’ on for ‘too long’.

[5:29:44 PM] feministsister: if you’re up for half an hour more then that would be nice.

[5:29:55 PM] |nvclink| (73 online): NYC_Guy : When something shows up that is suddently sexual, you sometimes feel confused? There might be expectations that you might feel pressured to meet? –

[5:30:23 PM] |nvclink| (73 online): NYC_Guy : I’d rather do 5 more min now and pick it up another time directly on skype if that worked for u?

[5:31:29 PM] feministsister: well. i think i would rather have those five minutes used hearing what was going on for you during the talk. would you be okay sharing?

[5:31:29 PM] feministsister: –

[5:33:04 PM] |nvclink| (74 online): NYC_Guy : oh, thanks for asking, Milla!

[5:35:36 PM] |nvclink| (73 online): NYC_Guy : is there something specific about my experiences you would want to know? –

[5:36:46 PM] feministsister: i guess anything you’d care to share – it can be related to anything – like what it felt like reflecting, or what memories awoke in you, or … anything 🙂 whatever is ‘alive’ and you feel comfortable sharing 🙂

[5:37:07 PM] |nvclink| (73 online): NYC_Guy : I’m finding myself curious about who you are, how old, how much sexual expereince you have had (auto and w/ others) and how satisfying those experiences have been. Wanting to trust that you will have wondeful, joyful sexual and love experineces in your life moving forward, wanting to be a contribution to you.

[5:38:11 PM] |nvclink| (73 online): NYC_Guy : I would love to have poweful answers to help you (in addition to emapthy) so I’m sad that I probiby don’t.

[5:38:36 PM] |nvclink| (73 online): NYC_Guy : while I’m checking in w/ myself, I’m wondering how all this lands for you? –

[5:39:51 PM] |nvclink| (73 online): NYC_Guy : (Not asking you to ANSWER any of my questions, by the way…) –

–

[5:40:26 PM] |nvclink| (73 online): NYC_Guy : Oh, wanting to know if my empathy was supportive? How I could have done better at supporting you.

[5:41:24 PM] feministsister: it warms me hearing that you wish me a loving life. i hear your eagerness to contribute. for me the empathy was supportive. i enjoyed that you didn’t go back to your own experiences (speaking in ‘i’ form.) and that you kept focus on me by the choice of words.

[5:41:42 PM] feministsister: also that it went fairly quickly arranging how to use the talking stick.

[5:42:01 PM] feministsister: cause that sometimes takes some time, and then i lose energy.

[5:42:31 PM] feministsister: so the kind of feedback and response you gave was helpful for me.

[5:42:39 PM] feministsister: thank you.

[5:42:58 PM] feministsister: is there anything else you want to say or hear before we finish?

[5:42:59 PM] feministsister: –

[5:43:47 PM] |nvclink| (74 online): NYC_Guy : I’m feeling moved by your saying it was helpful. My eyes teared up a little. Would you like to be buddies here on skype?

[5:44:13 PM] |nvclink| (74 online): NYC_Guy : and how do you do the talking stick thing when talking verbally? –

[5:45:04 PM] feministsister: well usually there’s not such a need for a talking stick when using voice. it’s easier to sense when the other is finished.

[5:45:09 PM] feministsister: has finished..

[5:46:20 PM] feministsister: i didn’t understand the buddy request. if you mean that you would like to exchange empathy with me, then i’m up for it. was this what you were asking?

[5:46:21 PM] feministsister: –

[5:46:21 PM] |nvclink| (74 online): NYC_Guy : oh, ok, cool. What sorts of situations have you feeling most like your body is not owned by you? I’m courious about that? (need to jump in shower soon.) –

[5:47:09 PM] |nvclink| (74 online): NYC_Guy : ah, I’m headed down to Occupy Wall Street soon. In skype, one can make someone a buddy so you know when they are on line and can text them directly w/o having to go though NVClink.

[5:48:34 PM] feministsister: i’m okay with having that type of contact. but i’m not the type of person having exchanges with people. like i’m dealing with depression, and right now trying to get regular and irregular emapthy exchanges with people who are interested in that.

[5:49:04 PM] |nvclink| (75 online): NYC_Guy : I’m good for empathy exchanges. wah’s your skype ID?

[5:49:24 PM] feministsister: so what i’m trying to say is that sure we can get direct contact on skype but that i’m unlikely to use it… unless you’re interested in having an empathy exchange with me, which is also a way of getting to know a person.

[5:49:27 PM] feministsister: –

[5:49:32 PM] feministsister: id: feministsister

[5:50:06 PM] feministsister: so. i guess i have nothing more to say right now. thanks again for the support.

[5:50:11 PM] feministsister: take care 🙂

[5:50:14 PM] feministsister: ❤

And myself processing the same event and relation a couple of days after the incident of sending a link with sexual content. Quoting myself sending a message on facebook, and using my own wall to freely express myself.

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Working on relationships (nvc exercises)

Posted on December 18, 2011 by sosiaalikeskus

posted by Milla — she=he

For Jonnamaaria with love. Some of the exercises from an nvc weekend course.

Click here: Taking care of needs in relationships (pdf)

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ofnr flow (nvc material in english, finnish, spanish, swedish)

Posted on December 8, 2011 by sosiaalikeskus

posted by Milla — she=he

(English) Click here: ofnr flow chart – the process of nonviolent communication (pdf)

(Finnish) Klikkaa tästä: vuokaavio http:stä – väkivallaton vuorovaikutusprosessi (pdf)

(Finnish) Klikkaa tästä: tunteita ja tarpeita (pdf)

(Spanish) Haz clic aquí: diagrama de flujo de osnp – el proceso de comunicación no violenta (pdf)

(Swedish) Klicka här: okbö flödesschema – empatisk kommunikationsprocess (pdf)

Here’s some pdf files with the building blocks of nvc – nonviolent communication – and how to navigate, step by step. Simple, and hopefully useful.

If you have any comments / ideas on how to make the process more clear, please let it be known. My email: milla.ahola (at) gmail.com

If you would like to have the flow chart in other languages, I welcome you to send me the text (with the english version next to it – so i can see what snippet belongs where) and I can make you a version in whatever language you wish to see 🙂

Any comments / corrections on the translation of the spanish version are also welcome since it’s mostly done by me searching for phrases and words online. I have no idea how it sounds to a person who actually speaks the language.

Take care,

❤ milla

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Daniel sticking to an agreement

Posted on December 7, 2011 by sosiaalikeskus

posted by Milla — she=he

Daniel is sticking with the agreement made in August, and sent me the following message over facebook today:

“

it’s december

so here i am

if you are still interested….

did we ever talk about the racist origins of the swedish welfare state?

i dont remember… probably yes

Sweden: Fascism in slow motion

”

Daniel’s message and my response:

and:

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NVC material in Finnish

Posted on November 29, 2011 by sosiaalikeskus

by Milla — she=he

I’m preparing a workshop with a woman who wants to introduce nvc – nonviolent communication – to her daughters. I’ve made some material in Finnish. A feelings and needs list, and a flow chart of the OFNR – Observation, Feelings, Needs, Requests – process.

PDF: Tunne- ja tarvelista

PDF: HTTP-prosessi

A special thanks to Jan for helping a random stranger at the library (myself) with translating, and as someone unfamiliar with the nvc-process, bringing a great deal of clarity to the wording used for the HTTP paper, with your questions and comments 🙂 THANK YOU!

Added December 7. I finally made some changes to the http flow (pdf above). And it’s beautiful!

And another one…

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October 2, International Day of Nonviolence & Empathic Action (Tele-empathy meeting)

Posted on August 28, 2011 by sosiaalikeskus

by Milla — she=he

[For the previous meeting: Click here] Below you can read the subjective, and fairly long notes taken from a meeting that occurred on August 14:

Note: For more up to date and precise information (links to web forms etc) please go to International Day of Nonviolence and Empathic Action (facebook)

There were about 10 persons present at the beginning of the second tele-conference for organizing a 50 hour global tele-empathy line on October 2nd, the International Day of Nonviolence & Empathic Action.

I thought the facilitation of this call was very clear and connecting. We were informed that we could press 6 to mute our microphone, and 7 to unmute. We were also told that we could sign up to a text chat, that was going on simultaneously with the call, where we could ask questions, comment, or ask for assistance. And then we started off by having a check in round where people were saying what was going on for them in the moment, and if they had anything to say about IDEA (The International Day of Empathic Action) and tele-empathy. Someone expressed excitement about the project and wanted to know how things had progressed since the last call. Someone was interested and curious about the technical aspect of the empathy-call. — Conscious evolution and large system changes were mentioned. As well as wishes to find compelling ways to engage people who would not at all relate to things like this. — Someone was working on an ‘intention tree’, and shared that checking interest within the french speaking nvc-community to organize a parallel empathy-line seemed to be challenging, and was guessing that it might take a year to get things going on the french side.

An agenda for the call was presented:

– Updates about the global 50 hour tele-empathy call for Oct 2.

– Updates on other, local, events for Oct 2.

– General updates

– How to work together as a team/ which groups.

– Publicity – How to reach out and get participants/facilitators/hosts/people who help organize from now until then

TELE-EMPATHY

Since the last call in July, there had been discussions about how many hours the empathy-line would be open. Two years ago it was 24h. Last year it was 36h. The intention for all the years, has been to have it as a 24 hour event all over the world. Someone had checked, and said that 50 hours would cover October 2, in its entirety across the world.

There was surprise expressed to this amount, and it was explained that this number comes from the existence of a virtual time zone adding 2 hours to the 48 that it apparently takes to complete an entire day all over the world. [Added info: Prior to 1995, International Date Line split the country of Kiribati. The result was that the eastern part of Kiribati was a whole day and two hours behind the western part of the country where its capital is located. In 1995 Kiribati decided to move the International Date Line far to the east- which placed the entire country into the same day.] After this curious fact was shared, it was decided to invite people in Kiribati to the empathy-call.

It was said that 50 hours is a lot, but that people were hoping to cover Oct 2nd globally, and if need be it’s always possible to scale back to less hours.

A part of the dilemma with finding facilitators, has been to find people who are certified trainers or something equivalent to that, so the strategy this year, is for people to self-identify that they would be capable of being an empathetic presence, and that 2 or 3 persons could do it together. [Example sentence given of what self-selection might look like during the conference: “I’ve only had three empathy classes, but I have confidence not to give judgement, advice, criticism, and suggestions. I can just be with them.”] The time slots would be peer lead. The sign up sheet is designed for many facilitators to sign up for the same time slot, and it’s also possible to list the languages each person would be comfortable offering during their shift.

Someone asked if the facilitators would have a choice in whether they want a co-facilitator. Wishes for peer supported facilitation was expressed, since last year, some persons who signed up, did not show up on their shift. So it was viewed as important to have back-up.

Someone thought it might be worth to first see how many sign up for facilitation, and then work out the issue about co-facilitation.

It was said that there are people who would sign up if they knew that they would have support. Co-facilitation was mentioned as optional, as a possibility, that it could happen, not that it would happen. Before it had been suggested that the first person signing up would be primary facilitator, second person a back-up. Now it was mentioned as something for the people facilitating to work out by evaluating themselves.

There’s been a test version of the facilitator invitation-mail with limited circulation, sent around for signing up and feedback. Attached to this invitation, is a link to a web form to register as a facilitator where you can fill in your preferences and what experience you have. For the actual time slots there’s a link to a doodle which spans the 50 hours – and by selecting the time zone, you can see the slots in your local time. To get event info and updates there’s another web form.

It was said that the facilitators can contact one another after receiving an email with the final info, containing contact-email so they can connect and co-ordinate. The message with the final info would probably also contain information on a line open for facilitators where they can call in and have togetherness, in the same way as last year.

The blessed facilitator chose at this point to invite, especially, new people to ask questions, or add something, and also asking if anybody was lost and wanted clarity.

Someone asked if the calls were limited to the local area of the person facilitating or if people could call in from anywhere in the world. The answer was: From anywhere in the world. It was said that the same system that was used for this conference call would be used for the tele-empathy line, and that people can access it through hundreds of local numbers, and also through skype.

People need to find the number on a drop down menu, showing the closest call for you. If they want to know the price of the call they can get this information by calling their service provider – i.e. the company providing service for their phone.

Someone commented on the length of the numbers, and that it was difficult to know what number to call. The response to this was that the numbers are in the international format, including the national numbers. If you’re inside the country, you don’t dial the international code.

Someone asked if there’s a FAQ (frequently asked questions) for people wanting to participate. The response was that at the moment the system is still being built, and that there will be calls/tele-conferences for all of the facilitators’ technical and other questions, to support people who sign up. The person who asked for a FAQ, said that from her personal experience, there are many things that would fall into subcategories, and if they are put in a FAQ both for participants organizing and people who want to facilitate, and if encouraged to read this before getting on the call, it can cut back the time clarifying things, and would make for a lean meeting with unnecessary explanations.

The same person continued to say that she was deeply moved and excited and impressed by the work done so far by the three persons taking initiative. She found the expertise, the attention, and the use of social media very inspiring.

Another thing asked for was to put dashes between every three numbers to make it easier when phoning in. The person expressed a passion to make things as user friendly as possible, visually as simple as possible.

Information about the text chat planned to run parallel and separate from the tele-empathy line was asked for.

Facilitators signing up for the tele-empathy can choose to sign up for either a call or text or both. A text chat was asked for to include people for whom skype or a call would not be a functional option. A person was looking at the technical possibilities for this, with a main concern of not wanting too many people chatting at the same time for the sake of clarity in the communication.

After this there was a short update from a person who had been looking on the web for different nvc organisations in France, Belgium, Switzerland and Canada, and as well had sent emails to individuals practicing nvc, with not much feedback. She was a bit disappointed with the low response, but waiting to see if maybe more people would get in touch later. She was suggesting that it might be helpful adding a link about IDEA from the cnvc site, when getting in touch with people you don’t know, since they might not be familiar with the trainers in the u.s, and in her experience, people might be more open to answering this way.

Someone took on the task of reaching out to more language groups.

Wishes to reach out to cnvc was expressed, – to contact office people, for contact information to key people in different languages, to distribute information, and so on – and someone offered to do this.

OTHER EVENTS

People can register to a website alerting about local events, around the world, all year round. It’s possible to receive alerts only on events that happen in the area where you live. It’s also possible to share events.

There was talk about worldempathy.org. The people having the site were no longer interested in paying the expenses, and were looking for someone interested in taking over. The current costs were said to be around 137 dollar per year. The site was said to have about two-thousand hits per month. There was a talk of whether it’s useful taking over the site or using another option, which would be to have the resources (needs cards etc) hosted on another site, and linking to that space. Some decision was wanted on what website to use, and who will host, and who will pay. It was said that there are other useful aspects with the site – videos, articles – and that migrating the information would be time consuming. There was some talk about technical issues and then a request and decision to discuss this and what strategy to go along with outside this meeting.

HOW THE TEAM WILL COMMUNICATE, WORK TOGETHER, AND ARRANGE THE NEXT CALL

This part was not very clear to me.

The things mentioned was to create an email list, sending updates to people, with the intention to minimize the email flow. And also to create a group on google for people who want to communicate in between – a separate group for supporters and facilitators.

After this there was a check out where there was gratitude expressed for the people joining and staying for 90 minutes, catching up, and giving feedback.

Then there was space for an “After Party” 🙂

A handful persons stayed on, asking questions, and sorting out some practical things.

Someone asked if there had been any Palestinians participating last year – the answer was no – and some contact information was exchanged to enable a possible connection.

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Daniel & Milla. August 4, the first recording.

Posted on August 26, 2011 by sosiaalikeskus

posted by Milla — she=he

The recording below is missing the last three minutes. It took me 2-3 days figuring out how to upload a jpeg image and an mp3 file on youtube. I don’t know why the last minutes aren’t there. If anyone can support me with how to get longer mp3 recordings, between 20-45 minutes (easily) available online somewhere for listening, you are welcome to contact me through email: milla.ahola@gmail.com or even better, on skype: feministsister

I’m really struggling with depression/stress/anxiety at the moment, so I would find practical help like this, very useful (helpful, supportive).

August 4, the first recording:

The first recording failed – it turned out the program on the computer only keeps one minute of audio – so, we started with another one. In the first recording I asked Daniel to describe the conflict process between us, and my short sum up of that goes something like this: First not wanting an intimate relation with me, and then not wanting to have any relation with me – finding the talks we had lacking meaning.

Since I felt rather lost what to start talking about in order for the conversations to have any meaning for me, I suggested when we started over, for Daniel to read an online text chat that I had had a few days earlier with a stranger on NVC Link, a messenger-system where people can ask for empathy, chats and practice. I had ended up doing a role-play with someone called Chris, and both Chris and I had been playing the part of Daniel. I was curious how Daniel would read this text, so the second recorded talk started after Daniel had read this chat.

[Daniel 0:33] “Yeah, I think it’s kind of like a good model of how our conversations were going for a really long time, when I was trying to block you, or something, so yeah, I think I recognize myself” … [Daniel 1:35] “it was fairly interesting to read, because, it’s like, yeah it gives, I guess it puts your perspective into it, that like, how does it feel to be blocked. Like, this kind of putting, like, putting up the wall or something, and then, not being able to get through that”

[Daniel 4:13] “I was really glad I think, when we like, when I just blocked you completely, and didn’t even have these frustrating conversations, because they really didn’t have a point, I shouldn’t have had them. I feel some regret about having a lot of these conversations, like I should have just blocked you, and not like, ehm, like do this double messaging”

[Milla 8:20] “So, maybe it’s important for you to be heard, in that you kind of, you see that, eeh, what you were choosing to do to protect yourself and your own space”.. [Daniel 8:30] “Yeah yeah, that was..” [Milla 8:32] “..was not really working, and also that you could see that it, it could also, uuh, cause, or like, have an effect on how I was experiencing..” [Daniel 8:48] “Yeah..” [Milla 8:49] “the situation” [Daniel 8:50] “..yeah yeah yeah. I think I can see both, pretty clearly”

[Daniel 9:01] “And, I might add, on like, your analysis, or like your reflection on, on how you see like, my goals, like, of peace and being at peace, and whatever, like, this is, like, blocking someone is not my idea of peace, ehm, it’s just like, I don’t know, maybe a choice of, I don’t know, it was, the, like the least, the the, the option that was, like, minimizing the damage, for me. So, in a way, like we earlier talked about, like me describing myself as, like, selfish, and then we had some kind of conversation yesterday about this or something, and yeah, so that’s, I see this as selfish, and at the same time useful for me, like, but I can also see how it’s not considerate towards you, like, so I would say that it’s maybe not striving for peace, but rather, like, minimizing the damage”

[Daniel 11:13] “at that time, I don’t think I was seeing any ways of how I could be considerate, but retrospectively, eeh, I would say yes, ehm, I could have been more considerate. I guess it was kind of a limited state of mind.” [Milla 11:43] “So, you were feeling really alarmed, or you didn’t see that you had many options, or just like, trying to to, to end this distress as fast as possible, or as quickly as possible” [Daniel 11:59] “Yeah, this is not a state of mind I would like to have, it’s not, it’s not pleasant, and it’s not, not eh, it’s not good for anyone. It’s kind of a lose lose situation”

What’s surprising for me to hear in this conversation is when Daniel is saying that there’s been a willingness to connect and talk with me from last autumn, when I myself from the moment I suggested we would talk about EMC [after exchanging 20-30 sms’ when starting to talk again] experienced the behavior I role-played with Chris. Daniel is explaining this with the statement below [not talking about the whole period, but only the last three months of silence before contacting me again]

[Daniel 19:30] “Ah, if you mean, if you mean, by the three months that I prioritized on my school, I don’t count it as, well, technically, technically the blocking, deciding just by myself to discontinue the conversation, yeah, that’s the same. Ehm, it’s just personally not the same for me, maybe because of, eh yeah, because that was because of school and not because of not wanting to talk to you anymore. That’s why I contacted you on my own after I finished school. So, for me, I see it for myself, I see that completely different from the earlier thing, but I understand how you, I understand how you, how you recognize the same strategy in blocking, like, meaning, unilaterally deciding about when a conversation ends or starts”

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