by Milla [she=he]
April 29, 2009..
This blog is the result of several desperate attempts to get the issue of hierarchies and the unjust sexist exclusion and repression of a radical feminist within a social centre project in Helsinki Finland discussed in a fair way.
It’s been a totally mad experience to go through, and I’ve written heaps of emails about it to a multitude of lists (finnish, european, international), and I’ve drank heaps of alcohol, and I’ve gone crazy. Currently I have a 2-year ban from the project, with no possibility to get it discussed during this time. But still I don’t know how to give in and give up, cause I truly honestly believe I have a right to speak and act and exist to the same extent as anybody else.
I have the right to be loved. I have a right to be seen – listened to – and cared for. I have a right to equal space to speak, think and act.
I have a right to be taken seriously. And if there’s no space to do it within the social centre project, I will at least have this space to speak without censorship and distortion – this is a space where my reality isn’t denied.
To get a background of the two main conflicts that I’m involved with at the moment – the exclusion of radical feminism from Social Centre Satama, officially starting with me getting kicked off a mailing list January 2008; and then, a year later on, going through a mini-version of the same process involving people loosely related to Morze Infoshop in Budapest Hungary – for an unprecise chronological overview of these two events, I advice you to click on the “Morze” and “Satama” tab on the top part of this blog.
On this blog you will find posts written by
Milla – a white heteronormative (and yet ‘bi’ – meaning biological sex is not determining my emotions of sexual interest, affection and love towards other persons) woman and radical feminist trying to figure out life and get the politics of dealing with internalized power-structures and hierarchies played out on an interpersonal level taken seriously – the personal is political. Currently living in Finland. Having a slight obsession with saving the scene.
Pre-Kaarina – Started writing on the blog in January 2009. Living in Finland. Hating Finland.
Daniel – Started writing on the blog while coming to Helsinki on a radical exchange December 2008 – January 2009, answering to a desperate call from Milla sent out to a european mailing list. [Warning: This Man Has Extremely Harmful Behaviors In Intimate Relations. This Man is not Responsible, not Reliable, not Safe in intimate relations, and will cause you harm. Read Everyday Male Chauvinism to find out more.]
[Pre Kaarina and Daniel have not been writing here for a long time, and have also been involved in conflicts with me. On January, 21, 2010 I changed the password for the blog and sent info to them about it. If they wish to continue writing – which i doubt – they need to get in touch about the new password.*]
Cunt Incognita – is the alter ego of Milla. A freewheeling cunt* on the road.
If you feel like making yourself heard, click on the “Forum” tab, and start a discussion, go on a random rant or write a poem. Express yourself!
*CUNT meaning the female genital organs which could lead the innocent mind to associations such as: warm, soft, moist, sometimes furry and perhaps even – friendly.
* For more information on these conflicts see a talk I had with Pre Kaarina, on feminism, and community support when it comes to sexist violence within intimate relations: Us talking about Daniel’s non-accountability