Leftist “Who Knows Who” Bureaucracy

by Cunt Incognita, FOTZE in Berlin — she=he

This is a letter to an infoshop in Berlin about some workshops I want to do and my frustration with the unspoken bureaucracy of the leftist scene.

Who Is Cool in the Leftist Scene? Who knows who?

hello again,

i’m now about to share a big deep trauma i have with the leftist scene.

starting with going to a workshop called männlichkeitsbilder in der antifa (Male images, Masculinity types within Antifascist politics) at friedelstrasse 54 last sunday, and the guy doing the workshop going around with a bowl where everybody was putting their mobile phones, and then putting the bowl in the fridge (or some other place while having the workshop) – not explaining anything, and no discussion whatsoever if this would be necessary or not.

i got the same feeling last time i was over at the faq cafe. a person who was there for the first time taking care of it, could not answer my usual desperate questions on how to practically arrange whether or not i would have some workshops there. i was asking for a person i could speak with face to face, someone who felt responsible for this, i asked for a phone number i could call, and the person was looking hesitantly at me, saying she’s not really sure it’s a good thing to share phone numbers.

i ended up writing down my phone number on a piece of paper. supposedly to be passed on to some person who could answer the questions about workshops.

here’s the number again:

0160 6777 059 (Please Call. It would make my life a whole lot easier and less stressful)

i’m not really doing any promotion for the workshops at faq.
i sent the info to stressfaktor, but nothing has been done with it so far (no info posted anywhere, and none of my questions answered, and i dont’ know why.)

also there’s no info on the faq site, and probably no info sent out on the mailing list you have?

i love diy. i love free spaces.

i hate the security paranoia, and the strong feeling of being trapped in an insider “who knows who” nightmare bureaucracy in order to be able to share something with others in a workshop or discussion.

i’m still not sure that the workshops are welcome at this place.

i’m trying to make clear that i have very small means of promoting them. i will NOT make flyers. i will NOT talk with everybody i meet. i would like to be able to have the information out there in some space where people who are interested, easily can find it and decide for themselves if they are interested in joining or not.

i can’t express the frustration i have with this.

that i would really like to be able to speak with someone face to face. since email contact is not working, and just prolonging this agony of being a total outsider to the “scene” that to me mostly is about people wanting to be cool or getting some status – not about people sharing what is in their hearts.

i got an email saying i would receive more info on keys and such later. that the person answering didn’t feel comfortable speaking english, and would write me when getting help with language.

i respect this. and my answer now is that i prefer SOME form of communication in WHATEVER language, rather than none.

i’m perfectly fine with getting the info in german as long as i: get some info.

and also would like to know who i can speak with in order to get the info about the workshops out on your mailing list, and on your website/blog (whatever it’s called).

please please please

milla

,

,

WORKSHOP INFO:
SUNDAY MAY 9th. TIME: 15 – 18
:: Consensus Culture & Decision Making

How to deal with dictatorship in so called “flat
structured/anarchist/leaderless horizontal” groups?

Practical workshop with short intro to consensus and different meeting
techniques. — Consensus means to agree, to compromise until
everybody can agree on something. It’s a method to practice direct
democracy. It doesn’t mean that everybody should be of the same
opinion. It simply means that it’s possible to agree on a decision
that everybody can accept.
.. ..


WEDNESDAY MAY 12th. TIME: 18 – 21

:: Theatre of the oppressed

Practical workshop where we through various warm-up exercises, games,
and finally theatre (role play) explore oppression on an up-close
personal level.
.. ..

.

THURSDAY MAY 13th. TIME: 19 – 21.
:: Alternative spaces & squatting from a radical feminist point of view.

Radical feminist talking about sexism within a social center project
in Helsinki and other spaces. Intro and then free discussion.

For more info: https://sosiaalikeskus.wordpress.com/read-this &
https://sosiaalikeskus.wordpress.com/h-e-l-p
.. ..


SATURDAY MAY 15th. TIME: 15 – 18
:: Feminist Self Defense

Practical workshop with mental, verbal and physical self defense.
Including games and role-play.

(For “WOMEN” = persons born with female genitals or intersexed who
have had faced oppression because of being categorized as female, or “women”
by the rest of society, “TRANS-MEN” and “TRANS-WOMEN”)

For more info: http://www.myspace.com/feminist_sister
.. ..


LANGUAGE: The person doing the workshop speaks English, but it’s probably possible to work out translation in German.

For more info, questions, comments, please write to:
milla.ahola@gmail.com

.

The workshops will take place at:

FAQ-Infoladen,
Jonasstraße 40,
U-bahn: Leinestraße (U8)

🙂

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3 Responses

  1. Hello, Milla:

    I’ve made a list of IAXAPs you’ve used in this thread. There were 5. I’ve made a suggestion for how you might change your language from IAXAPs to IHXENS, and believe that incorporating these changes in your writing practices will help you become even more integral with the beautiful, loving person growing so evidently out from your heart:

    i’m now about to share a big deep trauma i have with the leftist scene. “I will now narrate a big trauma I have had with leftist people whose practise of IAXAPs is, I anticipate, likely to be extreme”.

    i’m not really doing any promotion for the workshops at faq. “I want readers to know that my purpose is not to do any particular promotion of faq workshops”.

    i’m still not sure that the workshops are welcome at this place. “I have doubts the workshops would be welcome at this place”

    i’m trying to make clear that i have very small means of promoting them. “I want/need/desire to make clear that I have only very small means of promoting them”.

    i’m perfectly fine with getting the info in german as long as i: get some info. “If the information arrived in German, I would welcome that effort.”

  2. by milla

    hi angus 🙂

    i have something that i experience as a ‘vague’ grasp of IAXAP’s and IHXEN’s: i suggested a structured form (subjects marked with numbers or letters) for discussing this, possibly at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/practiceNVC/ with feedback, at least, once a week, on my part. i would enjoy hearing how this resonates within you?

    A: i’m now about to share a big deep trauma i have with the leftist scene. “I will now narrate a big trauma I have had with leftist people whose practise of IAXAPs is, I anticipate, likely to be extreme”.

    ** = i will now share random impressions of what i’ve experienced as alienating within the leftist scene. (would this work better for you?) ***

    A: “i’m not really doing any promotion for the workshops at faq. “I want readers to know that my purpose is not to do any particular promotion of faq workshops”.

    ** = i wish for the people contributing to the information flow within the FAQ community to know that i as a stranger in this city do not have an extensive network, nor intend to make flyers or promote my workshops verbally to others, and i would enjoy support in sharing information of my workshops on your blog, and mailing list. ***

    A: “i’m still not sure that the workshops are welcome at this place. “I have doubts the workshops would be welcome at this place”

    ** i find the communication problems i’ve experienced with you as very frustrating, since i envision the obstacles that i encounter to be fixed with very simple practical solutions that could improve the connection between ‘insiders’/’more permanent’/’old’ participants and ‘visitors’/’more temporary’/’new’
    participants, creating a more inclusive and connecting atmosphere on both sides. **

    A: “i’m trying to make clear that i have very small means of promoting them. “I want/need/desire to make clear that I have only very small means of promoting them”.

    ** i want to make clear that i have no desire to put a lot of energy into promoting the workshops, and would enjoy the support of your internal information channels to share information about..***

    A: “i’m perfectly fine with getting the info in german as long as i: get some info. “If the information arrived in German, I would welcome that effort.”

    ** ok. ***

    was this the type of feedback you were looking for? or would you like something different?

    • by milla

      hi again angus 🙂

      this is a response to the feedback you asked for in private:

      i appreciate your willingness to contribute with your perspective and your thoughts around language/feelings. i experience as the whole thing you were making comments on needing a re-write in order for persons not to take it as a ‘judgment’. the persons who received the email responded by calling me, and we then met up, face to face. there were 2 of them, both expressing receiving the letter as ‘hostile’ or that they had experienced reading it as if they were the ‘enemy’. when we talked it through, they seemed to have a sense of relief and feel more connected with my perspective as a person traveling and experiencing the infrastructure of the radical left not being accessible and alienating to person’s who lack persistence or knowledge of the ‘diy’ (do it yourself – self organized) style/culture of going about things.

      with “self organized” i mean a culture that i experience to be non-transparent and therefor non-accessible and fairly often unwelcoming/alienating/confusing to the ones who don’t already ‘know the ropes’.

      i hope this gives some answers to some of your curiosities 🙂

      take care,
      milla

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